1st things1st.

I scolded myself silly today, when my trip back home needed to be moved for some weeks or more, but for goods reasons too, that really I should be thanking God for but opposite was the case-for a second though. I mean I had a health scare back home and on my to do list was to sort a second opinion on this trip. But as I did that, I lost sight of these blessings and the fact that 1. I could sort a second opinion!!!!! ( but how many people do have the opportunity of a 2nd opinion in the 1st place ehn Bimbola?) 2. I got an instant appointment and was seen by experienced specialists and consultants(whereas many are still on the waiting list, I was just favored to get the appointment at this time of the year). 3. It was on tax payers money that I could get this health check ( I couldn't have afforded this even if I wanted to get it done quickly, but mind you I always and never moaned about paying taxes cos you get the services most time------------------here I mean!), I was treated with courtesy,care and support through out and even got the team to pause a min or two when the pain brought tears to my eyes (You and I know this is not what I am likely to encounter- in most public or private hospitals,back home !) and while awaiting the results , I got on with my prescriptions which ( I had no fear at all to either be fake or expired) it was heavy though cos I lost track of time and day. I was given a rest absolute order(just Iike you, that's what I needed to hear to agree to all the signals my body and soul had indicated months long now) and while resting in a serene environment, in the midst of care, love, support,lots of fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood ,(but could only feed on fluid) I was able to get on,on some online short courses; shortlisted going a year now! (gender stereotyping, data science and advanced researched methods) I even managed to complete 2 modules of each already (no Nepa, PHCN here, light was constant, no noise of the generating set from the next door neighbor or my household as is often the case) and then the much awaited results finally arrived in the post and I was certified a clean bill of health,(someone somewhere today, hasn't been as lucky and their life changed forever from same letter but a different outcome) and the letter goes on to say I needed to return in a few weeks just to make sure everything is fine and the ungrateful me, screamed "'oh lai lai, emi ko lon bawi mo n lo naija",best translated to non Nigerian , non Yoruba speaking natives as "talk to the hand hell no am I cancelling my flight, then it dawned on me that only the living can plan and re plan o babes, you have just been given the licence to live". I was truly ashamed of my reaction though I have since repented, but it did impact hugely on me; enough to resolve to share this despite my frailty, what is more important is to to drive home the point to someone somewhere and all of us really, " that we take for granted Gods mercies ,we have so much to be grateful for, in many small and big ways, lets acknowledge that and be grateful and be humble.
"I am begging you,whatever it is, that needs fixing in your life; yours might be relationships; your home, work,health balance,whatever your thing is, please do take the time to fix it, you deserve it, health is a priority cos Health is Wealth without it, its 6 feet down below. I have since forgiven myself, don't bring out the stick now. Most importantly I am grateful to God, for the privilege of life, do share with your contacts.